Okay, clearly it's late as anything & I'm here on blogging after a year's hiatus (according to the date on the last post ALTHOUGH the real reason the last post is from feb. 09 is bc I deleted the rest but I digress.)
I was reading the slim few tweets that were appearing on my time line from my twitter friends & my girl Imani had tweeted something along the lines of 'I can't stand fake people, just keep it real. no matter what i've heard worse.' << something to that effect, and.. it was like a light bulb went off in my head.
"I've been through worse."
Now, you may be asking "Ja, that's old. How didn't you know that?" << I did! BUT, I was so consumed in telling myself to be above any negativity that I forgot that I don't need to be above it bc I shouldn't be stressed out PERIOD -- "I've been through worse." !
So, this caused me to realize I'm a lot stronger than I thought I was (which is semi-shocking bc I thought I was your typical strong black female lol). Petty stuff? I'm over it. "I've been through worse." You don't like me? Jesus was tortured, and I'm supposed to be treated nicely? lol.
I'M OVER IT!!
-ja.
2.24.2010
2.09.2009
late night thought.
okay, so i have come to terms with my feelings.
i do not defend what i say or do or how i act so deeply because i feel that it needs an explanation, but rather because you are not going to take what i do or say & turn it into something it's not. i understand that some people are too simple-minded or thick-headed to understand the complexities that are the words and thoughts and ideas that come from me, so because of this i shall just "chill."
i have to accept & deal with the reality that sometimes you just don't have to care. some problems are not so. you CAN make a big deal out of something, i should know i've talked about it enough. anyway, i say this with my point being that i will not let negativity bring me down. i know what i do or say are positive, progressive actions & will just be away with all the bull.
im gonna pray on it.
this WILL take some time, bc i am sensitive & i do get offended quite easily but, i can do it.
'tis all.
i do not defend what i say or do or how i act so deeply because i feel that it needs an explanation, but rather because you are not going to take what i do or say & turn it into something it's not. i understand that some people are too simple-minded or thick-headed to understand the complexities that are the words and thoughts and ideas that come from me, so because of this i shall just "chill."
i have to accept & deal with the reality that sometimes you just don't have to care. some problems are not so. you CAN make a big deal out of something, i should know i've talked about it enough. anyway, i say this with my point being that i will not let negativity bring me down. i know what i do or say are positive, progressive actions & will just be away with all the bull.
im gonna pray on it.
this WILL take some time, bc i am sensitive & i do get offended quite easily but, i can do it.
'tis all.
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